It's 3 weeks left to the Prelims. Wow, I didn't even know that time went that fast.
The Mid Year Results weren't that good - and the constant pressure is getting into everyone in college. What happened to all the smiling faces? What happened to all the lame jokes? Gone to study.
Well, it's no wonder. 13 weeks to the A Levels. It just makes me shudder just thinking about it. Seriously. It's all or nothing. This morning's message from the school came in the form of a postcard: "Success demands singleness of purpose." And it's personalised - everyone has their own name and different quote for them in their own postcards given out in the morning.
I guess nothing comes free then - there needs to be sacrifice for success to come your way then...
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Road to A Level - Part I
It just doesn't make sense at all. It's been quite a lot of hard work, yet it is still not paying off. And I'm fast losing sleep and confidence that I'll ever hit 90 points at all. Everyday, there's just so much stuff to do, my time is no longer my own. Neither is my own body either.
These days, we keep getting hammered by so much motivational talk from teachers, from the Principal, from even outside speakers that the college has invited to speak with us during CT period. It's starting to make me feel much worse than the message that they're trying to across to us.
Do well in your A Levels! Don't give up! Don't stop! Don't slack! Don't waste anymore time! As if we didn't know this by this time already... The others can waste their time away by making noise during lectures, but the noise certainly didn't come from my class - everyone is so damn uptight about the exams that would ultimately determine which career path we go. Well, that's good news, for one, I guess.
Apparently, some, like me, have started to wake up and start the ball rolling to catch up on what we missed during the past semester, as well as JC1 work. It's tough, it's gruelling, and it certainly is emotionally draining. No more complaining - only frowning faces along the corridor, short tempers and sometimes even silence. Moreover, PE is physically draining - just yesterday we got sent into the gym, and having weak hands, I'm suffering from tricep aches every now and then. So much for all these people cheering when the lightning alarm sounded just before our timed 5km run.
As for all these motivational talk, frankly, I think it's starting to get counterproductive. Imagine the pressure to do well with more than 300 eyes(or pairs of eyes, go figure. It doesn't make a difference anyway.) fixed on your Mid Year, and later, the Prelims, result slip. Too much such motivation probably would get us somewhere, but it's certainly not right now. About high time they used reverse psychology, eh?
I think Mr Anuar's right. We're too pampered by the system.
It's draining on all levels however you look at it. Even with these, I've gotta stay strong for her sake...
These days, we keep getting hammered by so much motivational talk from teachers, from the Principal, from even outside speakers that the college has invited to speak with us during CT period. It's starting to make me feel much worse than the message that they're trying to across to us.
Do well in your A Levels! Don't give up! Don't stop! Don't slack! Don't waste anymore time! As if we didn't know this by this time already... The others can waste their time away by making noise during lectures, but the noise certainly didn't come from my class - everyone is so damn uptight about the exams that would ultimately determine which career path we go. Well, that's good news, for one, I guess.
Apparently, some, like me, have started to wake up and start the ball rolling to catch up on what we missed during the past semester, as well as JC1 work. It's tough, it's gruelling, and it certainly is emotionally draining. No more complaining - only frowning faces along the corridor, short tempers and sometimes even silence. Moreover, PE is physically draining - just yesterday we got sent into the gym, and having weak hands, I'm suffering from tricep aches every now and then. So much for all these people cheering when the lightning alarm sounded just before our timed 5km run.
As for all these motivational talk, frankly, I think it's starting to get counterproductive. Imagine the pressure to do well with more than 300 eyes(or pairs of eyes, go figure. It doesn't make a difference anyway.) fixed on your Mid Year, and later, the Prelims, result slip. Too much such motivation probably would get us somewhere, but it's certainly not right now. About high time they used reverse psychology, eh?
I think Mr Anuar's right. We're too pampered by the system.
It's draining on all levels however you look at it. Even with these, I've gotta stay strong for her sake...
Friday, July 2, 2010
I don't want to go 6 feet under. Help!
Okay, so the results have shown some statistics - we certainly aren't doing as well as expected, and it's worrying the teachers. C'mon let's face it - how good would the Mid-Year results get with that little time? And there's even less of it now...
It's hard to maintain concentration in class, especially since the school mood is getting more and more hostile as the A levels start to get nearer and nearer. First, Prelims, and the verdict that if we continue at the current pace, about only 30% would make it to the local universities. It used to be suffocating, now it's grabbing us in the neck.
Quite honestly, I don't quite seem to get any more motivation outta what I'm doing anymore. And there's no time to seek it at all, so to put it simply, I could very well fail the A levels. Unless there's something that can spur me on... Usually I'd be the one that's encouraging people around me, but let's bite the bullet of reality - who actually gives a shit about you when you yourself are down and out?
However, deep down inside, I know I can't get myself to fail myself during this time. But how do I pick myself up psychologically, apart from just working harder like a robot without finding any meaning in what I'm doing?
It's hard to maintain concentration in class, especially since the school mood is getting more and more hostile as the A levels start to get nearer and nearer. First, Prelims, and the verdict that if we continue at the current pace, about only 30% would make it to the local universities. It used to be suffocating, now it's grabbing us in the neck.
Quite honestly, I don't quite seem to get any more motivation outta what I'm doing anymore. And there's no time to seek it at all, so to put it simply, I could very well fail the A levels. Unless there's something that can spur me on... Usually I'd be the one that's encouraging people around me, but let's bite the bullet of reality - who actually gives a shit about you when you yourself are down and out?
However, deep down inside, I know I can't get myself to fail myself during this time. But how do I pick myself up psychologically, apart from just working harder like a robot without finding any meaning in what I'm doing?
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