Angsts of Agony

Shit, it's just plain crazy.

The lack of sleep has just been spilled over from last week, and fatigue rears its ugly head. In fact, I'm struggling to just finish this entry, just to maintain it.

For one, Mustaqim, Derek and I were stuck in SRJC-GE Camp '09, which was supposed to be a bonding camp for all of us Guitar members. It did its job well, yes, and we've exchanged our contacts with many others.

No time for juicy details because of school work, so here I have it: yet another sum-up of what has been going on.

1. I was sabotaged - I got put into the Cool Chikus group(the name sounds goofy) and I was the only boy, again, in the group.
2. I was used as the guinea pig for the cross-dressing station game - people might think I am a transvestite from Thailand after looking at the photos which were taken and uncalled for.
3. Mr Koh told us of the LT5 ghost and the mysterious lights in the 4th floor, A-block of the college. Now that's what I call nice juicy details.
4. Went to bed at 3-plus am. The "bed" wasn't a bed after all - I slept on the tables, then the chair and on the floor, due to extreme discomfort and lack of space leading me to shift around the classroom "bunk"
5. Planned for entertainment item in the afternoon.

How nice of them, buying us January to April birthday people one big cookies'n'creme cake to celebrate for us, despite us barely joining the ensemble for more than 2 months.

And if that wasn't enough, there was Project Work: Preliminary Idea to hand in as the first draft by this coming Friday. Mistaking the deadline as Monday, I slept at 2am on Sunday to finish up the remnants of my homework and crap. By the next morning, I couldn't get up on time, so I had to take a taxi to avoid smearing a good school record by being marked as late for assembly yesterday.

With all the homework done in advance, it bought me ample time to study for today's Mathematics lecture test, and I'm good to go. Yawn. At least the agony is gone for a while...

Homework heartburn

Sometimes, we are forced to bite off more than we can chew, and this leads to indigestion, both literally and metaphorically...

March holidays wasn't holiday at all - we had to go back for two days to attend make-up lectures! As if that wasn't enough, the General Paper homework was enough to make anyone stand on the pile of homework and notebook file stacked together, and curse and swear for the next 24 hours without realising that noise doesn't get you anywhere near finishing what is expected of us in a 4H2 class. After all, in Serangoon JC almost everyone takes 3H2 combinations and we're considered the elite of the school simply because we chose this arduous path that sometimes makes me regret in complaint.

I question myself - Why the hell am I doing this? There's like, no time to leave to myself and doing leisure stuff? Where have all my lame jokes gone? What is becoming of me - turning back into nerd-school style? Why am I even here in a JC?

The answer is obvious - to get that stupid piece of weighted and laminated paper that declares that you are eligible for studying medicine at university level. But enough of this - academic stuff makes a life blog boring to the core, so I'll just skip to the juicy stuff of what has been going on in school lately.

Firstly, Rong Kai has left us, leaving us with 19 people in class 09-1S02, in order to pursue what he thinks he clearly wants, and taking up a Business Management course of some sort. Being a broker ain't really that bad a career choice either, so all the best to his future endeavours!

...and damn, I lost a good buddy just like that.

And there's a few of our classmates who went ahead and presented their speeches to win votes for positions in the Student Council Exco(Executive Committee), of which Julia's is certainly one that I, for one, really take my hat off too. After hearing her speech, I was expecting her to end with cliched expressions when here she shot off "I wish the other Exco elects good luck and all the best in winning votes..." Magnamity - maybe that's what most of us would forget after learning it. Still, it's one thing to learn off a classmate...

The Project Work question paper just got released today, and like the rest of the college, we were completely clueless as to what question to choose, mainly because they are so generic that we have trouble deciding what to put as the project focus! Hopefully we get over this momentary shock fast, so that we might be able to move closer to our As in PW.

And kudos to Reymond, for passing me my lost file, which his friend Alfred(apologies for spelling error) had stumbled upon during Podium CCA time, and helping me retrieve all the important documents inside it. Thanks again!

Who would you prefer to sit with during a daylong bus ride? A talkative person with a irritating voice, or a quiet person who keeps staring at you?

The irritating talker, of course!

One more friend(or enemy-though I'd prefer the former) beats having silent and possibly dangerous suspense all the time.

At least, there's someone to talk to. Given my nosy nature it's easy for me to find out the latest gossip off the irritating talker, and have a good laugh at his idiocy of talking nonsense all the time and not realising that nobody is actually paying any attention to him. Who knows, though the voice can be irritating, but at least I get to know a new acquaintance, and maybe be friends along the way. After all, it's better to have one more friend than having a extra enemy, right?

As for getting someone who keeps staring at me and is very quiet, sometimes it gives me the spooks. If that quiet fella turns out to be a homosexual, I'm in trouble.

Self-discovery

Just thought I'd take a little quiz out of boredom, so I went to this website.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
How accurate this is, to me! Here are the results, for curious folks out there:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Pricey Items and Economics Galore

Just a sum-up of what's been going on recently in school. Firstly there was just too many things to do at one go, mainly because you don't get much sleep at all during the weekdays. Lectures and tutorials went on as per normal, only that there has been quite a few events happening around me during the past 2 weeks.

1. We witnessed Tricia throwing Dominic's wallet down 3(or maybe 4) whole storeys
2. Reymond was called "laughing gas" by Huijuan - I totally agree without reservations, because his laughter is REALLY contagious.
3. I drove Reymond and Huijuan crazy laughing at me whilst trying to drive a point of Chemistry concept into their minds in a truly Singlish way.
4. Some goondu 'makeshift couple' disrupted the entire Chemistry lecture because the lecturer had to tell them off in front of the whole hall just because of removing one of the victims' shoe and playing a fool. Tough luck, suckers!
5. I'm feeling the weird vibes of studying a super thick Biology textbook that cost me $64 and is gonna last me 2 whole years. Talk about investment in studies...
6. Derek wore the wrong colour uniform pants - he mixed Anglican High's up with Serangoon JC's and ended up being the only oddball wearing white pants and college polo to school! Talk about loyalty to one's secondary school... Haha!
7. Managed to get on Isobel's nerves for once with lame jokes ^^, during CCA time.

That being said, this week is going to be really fast AND draggy, mainly because there's going to be an Economics test coming right up this Thursday, and school is so boring now that the stress is hitting everybody hard. Someone come and brighten my day, please!

Rice, veg and good home cooked food

Just one month in SRJC and I'm already feeling the pinch both wallet-wise and physically. My brain's still working well, thanks to many late night overdrives during the 'O' level period, so in a sense I'm quite used to sleeping late and waking up early and still mentally fit, apart from my usual dose of caffeine and utter lameness in the classroom.

In fact, I'm actually blogging from school, in the middle of a heavy downpour. The food here is really expensive at the cafes, so like I mentioned earlier, my wallet is being hit hard. Apart from that, you could say I had tough luck. After studying at the study just now, the rain came and because I forgot to pack my umbrella and windbreaker, I'm stuck here, until the rain stops.

Well, I guess it's another day gone, spent in SRJC in its completeness. Shit happens all the time, so I've learned to take things easy... That said, I don't blame ya for not turning up at the study anyway. :)

Lord have mercy

It's tough, and it's hitting hard on all of us JC students.

First of all, they changed the timetable so that we could go home at 4.30pm every Monday. That's a good thing, because we need our much-needed rest. Now if you would just imagine yourself sleeping at one-plus every night, and waking up at 5am every morning to prepare going to school, and only just reaching the house door at around 8 at night, and doing homework until one-plus. The cycle is going on and on and on, and this week's gonna be the most stressful week ever.

Thank God I have people like Hui Juan, Tricia and Daniel to bring in some comic relief during this stressful "period"(no pun intended, it's an inside joke) where I had to stay up real late at night just to practice for SYF 2009. Severe lack of sleep, of course, is detrimental to homework as well, because today I can't really find enough reason to do homework when in fact, I have piles of homework waiting for me to do. Adding on to this is the Meet-the-Parents session with the CT tutors and a dialogue session with the school principal which ended at around 8 to 9 pm, and to make things worse, we SYF candidates were to report to school at 8am for ensemble playing and a trial to complete, one that would have us play all 3 pieces of SYF songs by today, and the score was given only like, 2 to 3 days ago...?

Needless to say, I flunked this trial, so I'll not be going for SYF. At least I know that I'm spared from all these last-minute training after failing this test, haha. More free time to devote to homework, I guess...